"Artistic"
I have always enjoyed art and considered myself to be artistic. To me that just means that I have a desire to express myself through art, notice and reflect on patterns/shapes/colors around me, can do reasonably well at my first try at arts and crafts, and have a fighting chance at Pictionary. I will sometimes obsess about getting a particular art project "right." If I learn a good general technique I will remember it and apply it to many different situations.
In Every Direction
As a child I would make up something to do with few materials and no specific guides to follow (one must remember this was pre-internet) but often would lose interest as soon as I was presented with a related art "kit." I fluctuated between spending time on what I would consider "art," writing, creating floor plans and maps, creating weird systems (I once created essentially a dice game of people getting better/worse in a hospital), making things out of Legos, creating plays and musicals starring my toys, and hand stitching dresses for very small (3") dolls.
In school projects I would follow any explicit rules -- I couldn't stand getting in trouble -- but I stretched the limit of every assignment in a desperate need to express myself. Favorite clay piece that I remember is sort of a combo of a cat and a human face with it's tongue out. Still have it and still like it for some reason. I also carved a Buddha-like figure out of pumice stone that I still have. My mom used to work at the
Oregon School of Arts and Crafts and was able to get a free drawing class for my brother and I -- but I think I was really too young to get much out of it.
Gaining Perspective
I learned pretty much everything I know about perspective and shading from an awesome art teacher in Jr. High (and artist) named
Jan Rimerman. One of my favorite classes of all time. I'm not saying I'm great at perspective drawing (working on improving), but whenever I am trying to do it I am tapping into those memories. I remember an art project to create our own currency. We also got to do more with clay than I had in the past. I remember making two clay masks and an ambitious attempt at a woman standing on the top of a mountain with an orb over her head... but it broke in the kiln, unfortunately. I taught myself how to do the most basic of things on the sewing machine -- basically sewing a seam on non-stretchy fabric and sewing over fabric edges so they wouldn't unravel. I made a few very fancy period-inspired dresses for a few Barbie dolls that I bought -- I wasn't really interested in dolls by that point but it's a much better size to create dresses for. I was in an amazing class that was considered "Advanced Social Studies" in which we at one point got to design a country including maps, religion, culture and exports. Maps -- lots of maps. I sometimes had homework to copy a map of different places, but I made lots of extra ones and spent a lot of time on them. I loved to color inside each country with dark colored pencils and fade towards the middle.
I did not do a lot of art in high school that I remember, but being an editor on the school newspaper gave me some exposure to doing layouts in various applications. I remember doing a collage from magazine images my freshman year that I loved -- didn't look anything like anyone else's. I remember that I had an image of a triumphant tennis player (hands held high) being sucked into the middle of a black hole graphic. And ballerina legs on top of a satellite.
Drawing on Experience
In college I tried a few more crafts and doodled flowers on just about every white board. For awhile I made lots of cards, primarily for my boyfriend at the time -- but kind of got burned out on them because I never received any... and decided I didn't want the expectations in either direction. I created a way to do paper roses that I would give away to friends. I learned how to do a "stitch" but not a "purl," but stubbornly knitted a king-sized plaid blanket a few years later even though I am very slow at knitting (it helped that my future husband was several hours away by train for a few years). I learned how to create bead necklaces that had flower patterns in them. At some point I got interested in using Sculpey, and experimented a little bit with it.
I took a drawing class and two oil painting classes in college, which made me somewhat better at drawing in general (we only got to draw the same 6 plants for most of the term) and a little better at drawing people. I think my college art classes gave me a much richer appreciation and understanding of color and helped me learn to make very light sketches of things before I started doing details.
I created two paintings in college that I like. The largest (about 3'x3') is a painting of me climbing between rocks, inspired by a Spring Break trip to Arches National Park. It has many flaws but I did a great job of drawing the back of my left hand and the painting reminds me of a special trip. I used to have it up in a previous apartment, but I got tired of a relative telling me twice on every visit how much he hated it. My very favorite is a painting of a painting. First I did a real life painting in class of a woman on a chair with some background elements. Then I tilted that painting so the chair looked like it would fall over backwards and painted the woman and chair in a much freer style. In general I was painting parts of her and the chair and then wiping off a lot of the paint in the center of each. It almost felt like sculpting. There is an interesting tension between the colorful happiness of the woman and the fact that the chair feels like it is about to tip backwards.
I still don't consider myself to be very good at drawing, especially from real life. I can draw quick specs for something, but more detail than that is really rough. The people that I know that are really good at drawing are doing art all of the time and have notebooks filled with their art.
Art with the Masses
The first year after college I was an AmeriCorps volunteer based in a grade school. I was primarily working with ESL students in various ways, but as a big school-wide project I traced a large map of the world in black crayon that stretched across 3 pieces of tag board. I worked with almost every class that went to that school to add features to the map, using a style I used extensively in junior high school (each country or body of water is colored darkly on the borders and more lightly in the middle). Working on that project is one of the things I am most proud of. Not just because the map looked good and was a group effort, but because of the change it made in how the kids viewed themselves as descending from immigrants from all over the world. We let each kid put two pins in the map representing two places that some of their ancestors lived. I remember at first everyone only had "ancestors" from U.S. cities and kids were very self-conscious about having relatives from other countries. However, I challenged the kids to "go back in time as far as you can" to find out where some of their ancestors had come from. It became "cool" to be able to put pins in new areas. I remember a girl who came running up to me, so excited because she had an ancestor from Australia, and no one else had put any pins on that country yet. But I digress...
World Enough and Time
I have also gotten into the habit of doing marbling or stippling on many walls in my house. I no longer am willing to do them on rooms with very high ceilings, however!
The periods of doing any art at all have gotten further and further apart as I have had less free time. When my husband and I were dating I made several small dragons out of Sculpey -- the most notable of which was playing a french-horn. The french horn only took 2 tries and took about 8 hours, so I got off pretty easy... Since college I have continued to do some sort of art for a few months and then lose interest. For example, I have a baby scrapbook for my first son... and scrapbook supplies that maybe someday will get used to create scrapbooks for my other three kids, but otherwise just serve as a source of stress <sigh>. At some point in college or afterwards I did several black construction paper and tissue paper projects that look vaguely like stained glass. I occasionally come back to doing that kind of art. I think I am less self-critical doing it because I never see better examples. The only time I see that kind of art is in grade schools, and I'm sure they don't let kids have x-acto blades. On the negative side I am not particularly dexterous (just stubborn), so I have to do a lot of patching of "oopsies" and have to make tons of course corrections. I remember I did a series of 3 scenes from Cinderella and a somewhat abstract one for my mom that sort of looked like a woman's hand playing the guitar.
Exploring Artists
For the last few years I have volunteered at my kids' school with the "Explore Art" program. Basically, a parent comes to each class about once a month and teaches a little bit about a particular artist and then helps the kids to an art project that is somehow inspired by some of that artists' work. The lessons for each grade are age-appropriate (attention span and typical dexterity for that age) and are designed to build art vocabulary and techniques from previous years. Overall, it is very rewarding, but also sometimes makes me sad when I see someone's creativity get squashed because of a volunteer that cares way too much about the kids strictly following the rules or get cramped by time constraints. By about 4th grade many kids get very good at drawing one particular thing (could be anything: flowers, Minecraft characters, superheroes, unicorns, etc.) that they feel confident about but are very resistant to trying to draw other things or using different techniques. I try to find a reasonable balance between following the spirit of the art lesson, letting them do art they are comfortable with, and stretching them to try to try something that maybe they haven't tried before. I remember a lesson on stippling using paints during which a girl accidentally got so much water on her brush that the dots in part of her art blended together. She was so upset she burst into tears. I remember telling her in all honesty that that was my favorite part of her drawing and she should remember how she did it in case she wanted to do it again. I don't like being the main parent teaching the art lesson (I prefer teaching 1-4 students than 25) but I really like helping. One of the parent volunteers that I admired liked to say something along the lines of "you kids are artists... and whatever art you do is peeerfeeect." I am not generally a fan of praising all kids' efforts as "perfect." However, it really set the tone in her classes and I could tell that the kids were a little more flexible about trying new things and less panicked when they got a little lost or made a "mistake."
Art With My Kids
For most of my kids' art projects I am just offering practical advice and providing resources to help them do whatever project they are into at the moment. I have helped my kids modify their Minecraft-inspired cardboard armor so that it can easily go on and off of their stuffed animals, make Perler Bead projects, Rainbow Loom projects, and provided lots of paper for origami and paper airplanes. One of my sons has made some really impressive... gliders? that are made out of paper and thin cardboard strips and kind of look like a huge bird or pterosaur. I don't really like doing Perler Bead and Rainbow Loom projects -- too much planning before you get started, and difficult to make changes.
I have also made (low-quality) outfits for my kids' stuffed animals on request -- but only if they help. I am hoping to be able to make them a pattern that they can use for future clothes. I really wish they had straightforward stuffed teddy bears or something instead of all of these lounging cats, etc. It would also be nice if they wanted shirts and shorts or something instead of superhero costumes, which they want to fit more snugly. I always do very simple costumes because 1) I am not great at sewing and 2) Each stuffed animal so far has required starting from scratch as far as clothing patterns and 3) I want the costumes to be things that they will think are possible for them to do by themselves eventually.
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I am just now reminded of a trick someone told me for creating your own corset (wear an old t-shirt, create a corset over it using duct tape that can then serve as a pattern. Oooh... gotta teach my kids that trick for animal superhero costumes. They might accept the duct-taped version as the costume. Project!
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A Tangled Web
I knew this year that I really needed to find more things that I enjoyed doing in my free time. I finally felt like I had enough of that to work with now that my youngest is in kindergarten. Also, I knew that I needed to have surgery and would need to lay low for a few months as I recovered. I like doing art, but I don't currently have a lot of space or time to do it. I saw a book on creating Zentangles, and immediately recognized that it was perfect for me right now.
Short guide to creating a Zentangle: divide a small piece of paper (recommended 3" on a side with rounded corners) into a few random sections with pencil and fill each section with different patterns using a black pen. Some shading with pen or pencil allowed.
This is perfect for me because 1) doesn't take up much space 2) needn't take up much time and 3) emphasis on doing things in pen means "there are no mistakes" and I don't run around in circles trying to re-do areas over and over to get the art to be "perfect." You do a tangle, mentally log what went well and what didn't, and do another one. I am practically physically incapable of 100% following directions when it comes to art (and uncomfortable breaking rules in just about every other situation). I still have not done art that follows all of the Zentangle guidelines completely, but may challenge myself to do so at least once. I use 4" x 4" or 6" x 6" paper squares (supposed to use 3"x3"), lightly sketch difficult geometric patterns in a section before switching to pen (supposed to do all patterns in pen), and use a lot of color (supposed to be only one color of pen and minor shading with pencil). A lot of artists are doing similar things and consider their work to be "tangles," so I consider my recent work to be "tangles" or "tangle -inspired."
It should come as no surprise that there are thousands of examples of different artists' tangle art and thousands of tangle patterns on Pinterst (which now includes
my tangle art board). There are hundreds of videos on YouTube of
people doing tangles. There are dozens of books you can buy to learn different patterns or books that provide
tangle-inspired artwork to color. Many zentangles or tangles look like -- a piece of paper divided into sections with different designs, and don't interest me at all. Some tangle art fills me with excitement when I see it (usually ones that aren't following all of the Zentangle "rules"). I am happy to create different tangles and try different things, but I aspire to creating some tangles that fill others with the same excitement I have felt seeing others' work.
Path of Least Resistance
I know I could improve my art skills in many different directions if I focused my efforts. I wish I could say that I was really good at drawing the world accurately and chose to do art that is somewhat impressionistic, abstract, or quirky just because it helped me convey my viewpoint. However, the truth is I am rarely able to draw anything like what I see in my mind and have to keep adjusting what I would like to draw to what I can draw reasonably well. I am also hampered by the fact that I consider myself to have less than stellar manual dexterity. Some who see some of my art might argue with that assessment, but they are mistaking "stubbornness" (and many course corrections) for "talent." I will try to think of it as "determination" rather than "occasionally exhibiting OCD-like symptoms." I cannot draw a successful straight line or curve if it is more than about two inches (as far as I can move my pen tip while keeping the heel of my pen on the table). Larger body motions like doing larger charcoal drawings feel much more natural. I know that there are many things I could do much more successfully as digital art, but I just can't create new things without having a tactile experience with the medium. Perhaps at some point I will take previously created designs and do purely digital versions later. I have had to make some edits to my art to make it look good when I reproduce the design on t-shirts, etc. so I am somewhat moving in that direction. I would love to be able to sketch out an art design and have a bunch of artists try to draw what I describe. Almost makes me want to create a children's book just to get to do that.
Personal Enterprise
My sister-in-law saw some of my tangle art and remarked that she would much rather have that on a shirt than most things she sees. After having spent a fruitless search for acceptable women's t-shirts a few weeks previously (everything ran to flowers, animals, or glitter), I was inclined to agree, but hadn't though about anyone else feeling the same way. I am often a very under-served consumer -- if I can't find something that is really close to what I want I often just "punt" (buy nothing). I needed t-shirts anyway, so I created a Cafe Press store (
Cafe Press: "Megan's Tangle Art") in case anyone I know (expected pool of potential customers) wants to use my designs on t-shirts, mugs, etc. After reading up a bit on their somewhat shady seller compensation practices I may move to another site, or try another one on Zazzle or Amazon in addition to the first. I have certainly had to "get my geek on" to get even those fledgling stores and this blog up, but obviously there is a lot of room for improvement. I also have spent way too many hours learning about the most basic of image manipulation using free
GIMP software. Dangerous time sink, but necessary to get artwork up online in a form that would look good on a light or dark t-shirt.
Maybe that now that I've been doing tangles for a few months I will lose interest -- not unprecedented for the fickle artist that I am. Especially true since I've spent the last week wrestling with GIMP, Photoshop (briefly) and Cafe Press' horrible UI for shopkeepers (I may have to do a few more
UI Behaving Badly blog posts). Writing about the art I am doing makes me more self-conscious about my process and makes it harder to be spontaneous. Learning about what things will make my art look cleaner when digitized also has that effect to some degree. On the plus side, I have a good head start since I have already done about 14 tangle-inspired drawings.
The Good, The Bad, and the ...What IS That?
I would like to post some of my art work here so that people can link to the pictures that they like and read the commentaries if they wish. Also, I don't want to pester people with art announcements -- I'd rather people had the option to just check my website when they are in the mood. I'd be interested to know what things people respond to, or if certain pieces remind them of something. Some of art is a little... odd. I feel a little intimidated as a beginner when I look at other people's tangle art on
Pinterest or
YouTube -- I'm glad I didn't do that until creating a dozen tangles myself. I can't help wanting to focus my blog on art that went well... but I will also post some art that didn't go well. It can help me mentally process what I have learned and also may help other beginners. Many of the expert tanglers out there do their practiced tangle patterns effortlessly, but never say anything about how they are thinking through what they do and when (if ever) they have sparks of inspiration or make "mistakes" that make them change their design.
When I am creating a successful tangle I feel like I am navigating inside of it like a dream landscape and experiencing it in almost a kinetic way. Maybe someday I will be able to explain that better. I may start by trying to draw a specific pattern, but when I try to draw it, it transforms into something else. I like art that has motion and takes me on a journey.